I felt great relief being able to leave the BORG, when their theological implants began to fail in a cascading fashion. I was free of the collective and found that anger was unwarranted. I still believe most JWs including the leadership are sincere in their belief system or BS. and as none of them nor me can live up to any fantasy ideal, there is no point in expecting otherwise. Expectation is the key... the closer ones expectations are to experienced reality the fewer reasons one can find for any strong emotion.
reality is perfect until you compare it to something it is not.